While the child (from my last blog) is still sleeping another character has woken up. I was drawn to him when organising my images. He seemed to represent how I feel about the new year — a bit clueless.
This broad shouldered giant (image above) emerged from his slumber as a charcoal drawing five years ago. He was familiar to me, as if I knew him well. He reminded me of my father and my uncle.
There was another part to the drawing—a woman, my mother, peeking out from the top of a tree. Was she playing hide and seek? The giant looked beseechingly up at her. The men in my family surely were lost without her—the woman that grew all the vegetables and fruit, cooked, preserved, washed, baked bread and tended to their needs. My father and uncle weren’t gentle in real life. Or if they were, it was hidden behind a deeply conditioned manliness that left them unable to care well for themselves and others.
My gentle giant has a wound on his throat. He’s kind of mute and bewildered—doesn’t know what is his to know. In my imagination he is standing in a clearing in the forest. Waiting for some magic to arrive on the evening breeze out of that enchanted forest. Waiting to be pleased.
But instead of some enchantment I’ll offer him something to read. Something dry but helpful, a few good words as a compass to take on his way—into the school of life for another year.
‘Keys to Awareness: Feel that your own well-being and functioning matters. Get on your side; be for yourself. Cultivate wanting to be in reality, to know the facts of the inner and outer worlds. Know and trust that your greatest safety and hope is in seeing what’s true, not matter what it is. Whenever you move into awareness/observation mode, you instantly distance yourself from things (inside or outside yourself) that are painful, and center yourself in a place that is inherently calmer and wiser than just reacting. And the only way you can intervene in your experience or your environment in order to make things better is by knowing what the facts are and what has caused them to be. Bring compassion and kindness to yourself and to whatever your awareness finds. Hold your innermost feelings and longings with the sensitivity and concern you should have received as a child’.
by Rick Hanson, PhD, 2005
After writing this I wonder whether the giant is not an aspect of myself. My child didn’t receive much kindness, sensitivity and concern and those unfulfilled needs grew into an ungainly giant.
This gentle giant and I wish you an aware, wholesome, inclusive and enjoyable year.